I did something I tell ya’ll ALL THE TIME not to do, so I felt like I should come clean.

I weighed myself and then was hard on myself for the number I didn’t like staring back at me.

I know, I know. I say constantly— and I know to be true— that weighing yourself on your home scale doesn’t give you a full picture. When I stated working out seriously I gained weight, and I was okay with that. And, I tell ya’ll to be okay with that too.

But I wasn’t okay with the number the other day, and I was upset at myself. I wallowed around for an hour about that number. Soon though, I remembered something. I remembered I can break a wooden board with my kick. I can get out of choke holds and I know how to throw someone to the ground. My body is strong and capable.

Maybe it’s not 100 pounds. But why does that matter anyway?

I am strong, I am healthy, and overall I am happy with the way my body looks. Those three little numbers on the screen below me shouldn’t make me want to throw all that way.

This was something I wanted to share to show that while I always want to be as body positive as I KNOW I should be, sometimes I have setbacks– and I’m okay with that. But when I, 9 days out of 10, practice self love and self care, I am happy with my body and I don’t even have the temptation to get upset over a number.

And you shouldn’t either. But if you do, don’t beat yourself up about it. Cry a little or wallow in your misery, but in an hour you pick yourself up and remember, you are capable of so much more than that number can show.

In 2019, let’s stand together against criticizing our bodies and body shaming. Let’s stand for pushing our bodies to do their best, and thanking them for keeping us going.

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